I'm already getting to the point in this pregnancy where I'm getting a little irritated. I have to get up every 2 hours at night to go to the bathroom, then I can't fall back asleep. None of my pants fit. He's getting really heavy. My back, hips, and stomach ache all the time. But I know for a fact that it is ALL worth it! And I'd do it over again in a heartbeat for my kids.
Ken and I go to Barnes and Nobles every weekend for a little coffee date. Since Madeleine was born we've taken her with us. She has a great time eating a bagel, visiting with the "regulars," reading books and drinking her "chai" (really chocolate soy milk.) We talk to one lady who works there every week - since before Madeleine was born. She had a baby a year ago so we always ask about her. She is content with her family size but knows we want a big family and totally respects that. Last week she saw me waddling around the store and asked how I was feeling. I truthfully answered that I was getting a little sore and tired and couldn't wait to have this baby. She asked me if I had changed my mind or if I still wanted more kids and without hesitation I answered YES! I will forget about this, about labor, about lack of sleep, and I'll get a precious gift from God. I will never turn down such an amazing gift. (I haven't got to the annoyed part yet.) In fact, this didn't annoy me at all, it put things in perspective that this hard part of pregnancy will be over soon and I'll soon have a sweet little boy.
Now for the annoying part. Today we went to our local butcher shop to pick up some fish for dinner. A guy from our church owns it and we love going there. It's right in the heart of the downtown part of our city. So I parked and put Madeleine in her stroller and took a walk down Main Street. After we went to Joes, we decided to walk down to a little yarn store. I usually don't like this yarn store but they were having a sale so I just wanted to see what they had. I pushed Madeleine in, and she was being her usual charming adorable self. Then the owner of the shop asked, "Is she having a brother or sister?" I answered brother, and she said "Oh good, now you can quit, right?" Honestly I was totally shocked and didn't know what to say for a moment! I've heard of people commenting on family size, but always thought it was more like families with 5 or 6 or more kids. I have ONE (and 3/4 :) She looked like she really wanted an answer so I said, "I'd take 10 more just like her." She looked at me like I was crazy and continued what she was doing. So I just got out of there but walking back to the car I started to get really really annoyed. Who does she think she is? I could have told her that I totally trusted God with my family size and would never turn down a gift from Him. I could have told her it was none of her damn business. Seriously, if anyone ever says anything like that to me around my kids when they are old enough to understand, I'm going to be really mad. And also, I'd be so sad if I knew this was my last 5 weeks of pregnancy EVER. I pray I get to experience it all again.
But I do realize this is the culture. You have your one boy and one girl then you're done. After all, it's important to be able to pay for their entire college education, have a huge house, go on lots of vacations, and buy expensive things, right? It's probably not this lady's fault she thinks like this. What do you say to someone who makes this kind of comment?? I'm SO grateful that I do not think like this and even MORE grateful that I have a husband who is totally open to life.
I had to go through a lot for my kids. Surgeries, drugs, infertility, doctors, needles, morning sickness, hard labor and recovery. It was SO worth it. SO worth it. I would do it all again in a heartbeat. My babies are worth it.