Nursing issues no one tells you about

Yeah, the books tell you all about the sore nipples and humongous granite boobies. I've had both of those.

But they don't mention things like being sick as a dog and not being able to take any good drugs. I thought I could take Tylenol Cold, but no. I called the Lactation consultant and she said I could take plain tylenol and plain Sudafed. But the ingredients listed on the Sudafed are the same as the ones she told me not to take in the Tylenol Cold.... So I am suffering.

Also, things you eat cause problems. I'm not sure exactly what all I shouldn't eat, but I know that so far, broccoli and chocolate have caused a fussy baby.

And all nursing bras are crap. (That I've tried anyway.)

And my kid likes to spit up. Without warning. When I'm feeding her. In my bra.

But believe me, I'm not discouraging anyone - 99% of the time I love it.

Back to Work

Well, today is my last official day of maternity leave. (Actually, I was supposed to start last Monday, but I finagled an extra week ;-)

For those of you who don't know, I am a nanny for a family with two little girls who live in my neighborhood. Grace is 7 and in 1st grade and Ava is 17 months. I've been with them since Ava was 7 weeks old. They are a wonderful family and I'm very blessed to work for them.

I have mixed feelings about going back to work, however. It's always been my dream to be a stay at home mom, and these past 7 weeks have been some of the best weeks of my life. So I'm a little sad that I have to work. I'm very happy that I can take Madeleine with me, however! I know that most people who have to work don't have the luxury of still being with their baby all the time. But I'm sad that I can't stay home and take care of my own house, and spend all the one on one time with Madeleine that I want. I was really nervous for the first month or so because Madeleine seemed to be such a high maintenence baby. But now I think she's getting more comfortable with the world; she'll take naps in her swing or bouncy seat, and doesn't have to be held ALL the time.

On the other hand, I REALLY missed Ava and Grace. Grace is a sweet little girl, and I've been with Ava all day every day for over a year. (They think I spoiled her because I held her all the time!) But I absolutely love her. She loves me too! Every time I've visited or they've visited me over the past 7 weeks, Ava runs up to me, throws her arms around me and won't let me put her down. I saw her on Monday and she had a big grin on her face the whole time I was holding her. She's been really nice to Madeleine so far too - she kisses her on the head every time she sees her. Ava helped "break me in" to motherhood. I learned a lot about taking care of babies from her, and as a result I think I'm a little more relaxed than the average first time mom.

I know I'll have lots of people to help me, and Grace will be helpful this summer. We are getting a new double stroller this weekend so I'll be able to take them both out more easily. I also think it will be good for Madeleine to be around other kids - it will be like having two older sisters!

But I really hope I can handle it without getting too stressed out. I have to keep in mind that this is temporary. I will be able to be a stay at home mom someday. And for now, since I have to work, this is pretty much the best job I could imagine.

It's official

I've been "hazed" into my new role as a mother. I've taken care of lots of kids in my life, and I've been peed on, pooped on, and spit up on. But this was by far the worst incident (so far!)

Nick, I really wouldn't read this if I were you!

The other day, mom and I had to go take Grandma to the gynocologist. Poor mom has to take her every three months for reasons I won't go into here. (Although her doctor says that what she has is caused by smoking and lack of exercise, so there's another reason not to smoke and to exercise!)

Anyway, Mom's getting major time off of purgatory for these trips. Grandma takes forever, hates going, and is really rude to the doctor. So Mom thought that if I went with her, Madeleine and I could stay in the car and then Grandma would hurry up and come out. So Mom goes in, and I decide to change Madeleine's diaper on my lap, which I've done several times before. I took off her diaper, lifted up her legs to wipe her little butt, and she sprayed poop all over my shirt, neck and face! I just sat there in shock for a minute - I obviously didn't have another shirt, there was no way I could wear that one and we were an hour away from home! Also, I only had 2 wipes left. Well, I used the wipes to clean myself (and her) as much as possible, and then I just had to take my shirt off. Luckily I had a jacket that I just had to wear buttoned up until we got home. So of course, she pooped again as soon as she had a clean diaper on (the kid will only poop in clean diapers.) I had to salvage one of the wipes I had already used to clean her up again. So other than being shirtless when Mom and Grandma came out, everything was relatively calm. So we went to the doctor, took Grandma home, and then Mom took us to Starbucks.
The trashcan outside the door is where the poop shirt was buried.

Happy Birthday Ken!

You are the best husband I could ever ask for, and the best daddy Madeleine could dream of.

We love you!

The Sweater

I just wanted to show a few pictures of her sweater - she looks so cute in it!
If anyone knits out there and cares about the yarn, it was a 50% wool, 50% silk blend that was hand dyed. Someone bought it for me to make a sweater for a friend of theirs who was having a baby, but then we decided that it looked too girly for the little boy, so I bought some more yarn for that sweater and I got to keep this!

Dream Come True

We went to Mass for the first time today! I have not gone since March 4, the day before she was born. It was GREAT to be back, and Divine Mercy Sunday was the perfect first Mass. We went to the 8am, and sat with my mom and dad. I put her in her sling, and as soon as we stepped into the church, she started screaming! I took her into the bride's room (because she's so loud that even in the narthex she could be heard throughout the church) and took a few "laps." She fell right to sleep and I got in during the opening song. She slept the entire time - what a good baby!

I have always dreamed of having my own child, carrying her up to communion, and having the priest bless her. I have watched this happen all my life. Today was the first time I got to do that!

Then we went to Borders for our Sunday morning date. She was hungry so I fed her when we got there, and then I held her and read magazines for about an hour and a half while she slept. Then we stopped by Grandma and Grandpa's house because I wanted them to take her picture. She had on a really cute purple outfit and a sweater that I had knitted for her when I was recovering from my second surgery for endo last April - although I didn't know it would be so soon that I would have a daughter to wear it! I was hopeful though! She also had her Miraculous Medal pin that her Godmother gave her for her baptism. (And we still don't have a camera so we had to go use Grandma's!)

Then we went grocery shopping for the week at Wild Oats - she was in her sling again - she loves it! Lots of people commented on her and the sling. And of course we had to stop at Starbucks....

A Visit to the Retirement home

Madeleine and I went with my mom and dad today to visit dad's parents at their Assisted Living home. They are both close to 90 years old and have a hard time remembering things (like who Madeleine is!) But when we got there, Grandma could not WAIT to hold her. She kept calling her her "doll baby," and said she was just beautiful and perfect. Madeleine just smiled up at her for about 15 minutes before she was ready to be changed and fed. Then I carried her down to the cafeteria in her sling because Grandma wanted to show her off to all her friends at lunchtime. As soon as we walked in the door, there was a SWARM of old ladies! They just could not get enough of her! They were kissing all over her hands and they all claimed her as their own great Granddaughter. Grandma kept stepping in and saying, "NO, she belongs to ME!"

I think she made everyone's day over there!

And.... the best news. Madeleine slept from 9pm to 2am! That is the longest stretch ever!

Big girl

I am shocked - This baby weighs 10 lbs 11.5 oz! She has almost gained 3 lbs in less than 6 weeks! She has also grown an inch. She's in the 90th percentile for weight, and between 50th and 75th for height.

Her pediatrician today said she was "Practically perfect in every way." ;-) I knew it all along! She was SO good for the doctor today. She was sleeping all cozy in her carseat, and I had to get her out, strip her down, and then she got her temperature taken, and also head circumference, weight and height measured. (She did pee on the scale again though!) Then the doc held her and looked her over for about 15 minutes in just her diaper, and she just looked up at him and smiled. What a good baby!

Her tummy problems seemed to have cleared up. I guess I am giving up chocolate for a while.

We bought her a swing today (Thank you Nick for the Babies R Us gift card!) Here it is.
I hope she likes it! I especially hope she likes it when I'm trying to eat dinner!

Smiles!

Madeleine smiles now! She did it for the first time on Monday, and I thought maybe it wasn't a real smile... but she did it again today for her Grandma! She likes it when we talk to her in a high pitched voice. She's also making little "talking" noises now. It is so cool to watch her personality develop.

On another note, I think I ate something that disagreed with her this weekend. She was pretty fussy on Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday, especially in the evening, and she acted like she had a tummy ache. I think it was all the chocolate I ate. So, it's interesting. I had a very weird Lent. I didn't really give up much (except sleeping!) But now I have the opportunity (or necessity) to give up chocolate for a while. I'm happy to do it for her - although I think it will be hard. I'm really hoping it's chocolate and not milk though... It must have been something this weekend because she's been very calm all day today. We'll see how she does tonight!

Baptism Day - a few pictures

Madeleine with Godparents Jeff and Donna, Parents and Deacon Dan
Yep, I cried ;-) (She cried too!)
My beautiful baby

It was such a beautiful Baptism - just like I'd always imagined it would be. I thank God for this incredible gift of my precious daughter. Lots of people joined us to celebrate! Madeleine cried pretty much the entire time, except when Deacon Dan poured water on her head. It was so special to me that Deacon Dan was able to baptize her - we've been great friends since high school and college. We can't wait for his ordination in June.

We did have some "technical difficulties" lighting her baptismal candle. Since the Easter candle was brand new, it was really tall. Deacon Dan, Ken, and Jeff tried to stand on a chair and light her candle, but they couldn't reach. Deacon Dan got the candle down from it's stand, but then it went out! (Isn't it supposed to burn all year long?) Luckily Uncle Terry had a lighter and was able to light the Easter candle again, so we finally were able to get her baptismal candle lit.

Thank you to everyone who came and helped us celebrate! It meant so much to me that you would come and share in this special day. I know that lots of people had been waiting for her for a long time! It was an honor to have so many of our friends and family members there.

And thanks for the pictures, Heather! I will probably post a few more when some other people send them to me.

One month

It's amazing how fast it went, how much I've learned, and how great it's been.

My poor baby has an awful diaper rash. I called the doctor today and the nurse told me to soak her in warm water with baking soda, let her "air out" on a towel for a while, wipe her with warm washcloths, and alternate diaper changes with Lotrimin and Desitin. She really enjoyed the soaking. I hope she gets better soon.

Tomorrow morning I'm taking her with me to get a haircut. This should be interesting! I'm going to leave early and drive around, and hopefully she'll fall asleep. Then we're going to Mom's house to meet all the relatives who are coming late tonight.

In case I don't get to the blog in the next few days, everyone have a happy Easter! I will post Baptism pictures next week!

4 weeks old already!

My baby is growing up too fast.

1st Party

We went to Anderson this weekend for Heather's birthday party. Madeleine screamed in the car, but was fine when we got there, as you can see from the picture on Heather's blog.

And we went to Confession this weekend - Madeleine went in with me. Father Richard gave me a decade of the rosary for penance so I was wondering how she would do in the adoration chapel since there were about 15 other people in there. She did great!!! She was wide awake and stared at Jesus the whole time without making a peep.

Today I finished up her Easter/Baptism present. It's a little pink baby bracelet with a silver cross. It turned out really well - she'll be so cute!

Mom is finishing up her list of things to do before the relatives come on Thursday night. I can only dream of being that organized one day!
I ordered a shirt for Madeleine off ebay yesterday that will be perfect for this weekend.... but I'll tell you later in case some of those relatives are reading this.... ;-)

Finally!

We have a real belly button and it is SO cute! The stump FINALLY fell off - the doctor said it would take between 2 and 28 days, and she almost hit the 28 day mark!

Now I can get that little baby tub out and give her a real bath!

Of course, we have no idea where the stump actually is..... I have a sneaking suspicion that it's in our bed somewhere....

I never thought I'd say this

But I need an Easter outfit with easy boob access ;-)

Seriously

Should it be THIS hard to dress a baby for the day? Is the weatherman EVER right? Yesterday they said it would be sunny and 70, so I dressed her in a short sleeved shirt and pants. It was freezing and cloudy (but at least she got to wear one of the sweaters I knitted for her!) Today they said raining and cold, so I dress her in a onesie, lined pants and a little jacket, and it's warm and sunny. When she wakes up from her nap I'm going to have to change her.

So.... should we take Madeleine to her first Mass on Sunday? I had planned on taking her right away, but then our pediatrician said that church was the worst place to take a baby because of all the germs and everyone wanting to touch her. He said there are a lot of infections going around and he recommended not taking her for 6 weeks! So I haven't gone to Mass in 3 weeks. I really miss it! My friend Jenny brings me communion every week, which is wonderful, but it is not the same.
I think for sure we'll go on Easter. I mean - it's Easter! But should we go this week and risk getting her sick for her baptism?

Again!

She slept in the cradle again!! And only got up at 11:30, 3:00, 5:30, and then at 6:30 I put her in bed with me because it was freezing in our room - and she slept until 8:30. What a perfect little angel ;-)

We also had our first "playdate" today. Actually several of my friends and I try to meet at Barnes and Nobles one morning/week. Most of the kids are around Ava's age (12 - 22 months or so), and they play together while we get some adult conversation. So today was the first time I took Madeleine. She was not much fun to play with for the other kids! Little James was disappointed that he couldn't share his goldfish with her, but he did enjoy the zebra that's hanging on her carseat!

It's a Miracle

Madeleine actually slept in her cradle last night!!! I put her in there at 9:45, fell asleep, and then Ken came up at 11:30 and asked where she was.... I was SHOCKED that she was still sleeping in there! Then she woke up and I fed her, and then she slept until 2:30 in her cradle!! Of course, then she was up at 3:00, 4:00, and 5:30 and at 5:30 I finally let her sleep with me. Tonight we'll see if it happens again...

Also, Mom and I bought her several warm weather outfits because she didn't have any in her size. The newborn size is what we bought, and when we tried them on her, they fit her perfectly. So we decided to take them back and get the 3 month size so they'll last longer. And the 3 month size fits her pretty well! She is growing so fast.

Weekend stories

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, Madeleine has been keeping us busy!

This weekend we took her to Barnes and Nobles for the first time. She was not too thrilled. I didn't get much reading in, and we ended up leaving early. We tried again at Borders on Sunday, and she did great! She slept on my lap most of the time, and since we stayed about 2 1/2 hours, I ended up feeding her twice there. These are the greatest invention! My friend Michelle got us one of these and we have used it a TON already.

Later that day, we went for a walk at Clay Terrace since it was such a beautiful day. It was her first time in the stroller and she seemed to like it. We saw some friends from church there and they were happy to meet her.

And the best part of the weekend.... I got to do something that I've ALWAYS wanted to do and surprisingly, this was the first time I'd ever done it.
I got to go clothes shopping for Madeleine! I had never bought her any clothes, since we've been given so many. But since it's supposed to be in the high 70's all week, and she only had warm clothes, Mom and I bought her some weather appropriate clothes. Two cute dresses and a little short sleeved onesie with a pair of capris. They are SO cute on her! Then Mom went out and bought her two more little outfits.

We are getting ready for Easter. There are LOTS of people coming for Madeleine's baptism. I think it will be a great day and it makes me feel good that everyone is coming to celebrate her.

Small Victories

Today my baby is 18 days old, and today I fit into my favorite, non-maternity, regular jeans!!!!

YEAH!!! I think I'll go to Starbucks to celebrate ;-)

"Real" family life

Yesterday evening it was 76 degrees and sunny when Ken was driving home from work. I was just dying to get out of the house, so I called him and asked if he wanted to meet at Ritters for ice cream. So Madeleine and I met him over there and had dessert before dinner! (We made sure to tell Madeleine that this was a special occasion and not a normal thing ;-) It felt so good to get out and go have ice cream as a family. Then we got home and decided to take a walk - so we walked all the way down the street and back. Kids were out playing and riding bikes and parents were out watching. And Madeleine seems to love her sling and being outside in the fresh air! Then we got back home and got to talk to our neighbor for a few minutes. It was a great evening and felt like how things were "really" going to be with a baby (as opposed to being cooped up in the house all the time!)


Thanks for all your comments about cosleeping. It makes me feel much better about it. If you have anything else to add, please do!

Cosleeping

We're doing it. We didn't plan on doing it -in fact I thought I'd never do it. But the first two nights in the hospital, she would not sleep in the little clear bassinet, so I just held her on my chest all night. Then, we got home and she would not sleep in the cradle next to my bed. So she's been sleeping with us every night for two weeks!

I do like sleeping with her, because when she is next to me, she sleeps for 3 - 3 1/2 hours at a time between feedings. She wakes up, I can tell she's hungry before she cries, then she eats and goes right back to sleep. Most of the time I don't think Ken even hears us. I don't know how she does it, but she gets on her side and cuddles right up to me, no matter where I put her in the bed. Who knew that newborn babies could move?!

Ken sleeps under the covers, and I have been sleeping on top of the covers with a blanket for me. I just put her in a onesie and a sleep sack. I feel like she is safe this way, especially because I'm aware of whenever she makes a noise or moves. And I feel like I get a lot more sleep too.So, every night we've been getting her to sleep downstairs and then trying to put her in her cradle. Last night my friend Ashley suggested that I sleep with her blanket and then put it in the cradle so it smells like me. We might try that tonight. But honestly, other than the slight fear of suffocation, I'm not in too much of a hurry to get her out of our bed. Most of my friends tell me to do whatever works for us, but some also tell me that the kid needs to learn how to sleep in her own bed. And some people tell me that we'll never get her out of our bed if we start out like this. I tend to think - she's two weeks old and we can't spoil her yet! She was never alone for the last 9 months, and she's not used to it! Also I hate hearing her cry. I've let her cry for a few minutes in her cradle, but it just escalates and I pick her up and she immediately settles down. I have been having her sleep in her bouncy seat for naps during the day - and she does pretty well.

Does anyone have any thoughts on this? Advice? Can we keep her safe in our bed? If we sleep with her now will we ever get her out of our bed? If your advice is to put her in the cradle, how do we do that?

Thanks in advance, all you experienced moms out there!

Happy St. Patrick's Day (a few days late)

My little Irish Baby

How I spend my Saturday nights

Before Baby - watching Ken's band Uncle Juju

After Baby

St. Patricks Day Party and First Trip out

Yesterday we had Ken's parents, (Nanny and Pa), Uncle Terry, Aunt Jen and cousins Frannie, Daphne and David over for a St. Patrick's day Party, complete with corned beef, cabbage, potatoes, green cupcakes and coloring pages for the kids. It was a lot of fun, and Terry and Jen got to meet their very first niece for the first time!

And today, we went to Borders for the first time. I was going crazy being in the house for two weeks, so we finally took her out. She screamed for about the first 5 minutes of the car ride, but then went to sleep and slept the whole time - including the car ride home! We got to go on our usual Sunday date, drink the delicious Javanilla shake and read some magazines, just like in the days before Baby, but it was even more fun bringing her along.

Also, Angi, Grace and Ava came over today - Angi cut Madeleine's fingernails for me because I am terrified of doing it myself, and I got to see Ava for the first time in two weeks! I have not been away from her this long since I started watching them - when she was 7 weeks old! It was great to see them.

Madeleine had a very cute St. Patrick's Day outfit on yesterday - I will post a picture when mom sends them to me. However, the kid doesn't seem to take a very good picture. I worked really hard to get a good one yesterday - we'll have to see how they come out.

How to lose 20 lbs in 7 days

A. Have a baby
B. Nurse her every 5 minutes (at least that's what it seems like!)
C. Voila!

That was easier than I thought!!

On another note, Madeleine had her first pediatrician appointment this morning. My mom went with us - we both love her doctor! He sat down with us and answered all our questions, and then gave us a bunch of great information as well. We could not believe how much weight she gained in one week. She was born at 7 lbs 12 oz, left the hospital weighing 7 lbs 6 oz, and now she is up to 8 lbs 8 oz! He said she was perfect, everything looked great and to come back to see him in 3 weeks.

It was a beautiful day yesterday and we took her for her first walk in her sling. She loved the fresh air and sunshine, and fell asleep as soon as we stepped outside. I will have to post a picture later - I am making up for my previous lack of pictures now!

8 days old already?!

My friend Cindy took this picture today. She's in her crib looking at her mobile. That's the only time she spends in her crib.... I'll post more on that later!

We're going to her first pediatrician appointment tomorrow. It'll be interesting to see how much she weighs now. She's still the sweetest baby ever!

Cutest Picture so far

She's in her bouncy seat with her Bloomingdales blanket we bought on our New York trip in December. Also Ken picked out her outfit - he thinks she's wearing too much pink!

It's supposed to be 74 degrees and sunny today - maybe we'll take her on her first walk!

The Name

As many of you know, we did not reveal her name until she was born - we just called her Snack Pack! We just thought since everyone already knew she was a girl, we wanted one big surprise when she was born. Also, I didn't really want any input from anyone - Ken and I just wanted to decide by ourselves. You know how some people like to say things about things like that....

Well, we knew before I even got pregnant that if we had a girl, her middle name would be Margaret. Margaret is my Mom's, Grandma's, and Great-Grandma's name, and I think it goes back even farther than that. My mom decided not to continue the tradition with me, but that is ok because I like my name. I did choose Margaret for my confirmation name though.

We had lots of names we liked for boys, not too many for girls. One day, Ken suggested Madeline. I liked it but was a little worried that people would call her Maddie, and I didn't like that at all. The day after he suggested it, I woke up remembering a song that I had heard in college on a Rich Mullins video called Madeline's song. Here are the lyrics:

"Madeline fusses and Madeline laughs The angel who watches says "Hey look at that"
There's your faith mountains will shake
Cause God gladly bends just to hear Madeline when she prays
Madeline stretches and Madeline kicks The angels in heaven say "Hey look at this"
There's your faith mountains will shake
Cause God gladly bends just to hear Madeline when she prays

And the only angels that I've ever seen Look like tears on the face of the sky
Though it sure breaks your heart to see heaven all streaked up
With sorrows like theirs still you know all the while
From where cobbles shine golden like emeralds shine green
From where gems stud the streets and the walls
God looks out a window at us just to see If anything frail as a sparrow should fall

Madeline fusses and Madeline laughs The angel who watches says "Hey look at that"
There's your faith (there's your faith) mountains will shake (mountains will shake)
God gladly bends just to hear Madeline when she prays
God gladly bends just to hear Madeline when she prays"

I hadn't heard the song probably for 7 years, but I remembered it and I was singing to myself all day. Then I looked it up online and got all the lyrics, then I ordered the DVD off amazon.com.

After I heard the line, "God gladly bends just to hear Madeline when she prays,"I was pretty much set on the name. Plus Ken assured me that we wouldn't let anyone call her Maddie.

So for months, her name was Madeline. Then one day Ken asked what I thought of the spelling Madeleine. I thought it was beautiful and Ken thought it was very feminine. Also that is how the saint's name is spelled - St. Madeleine Sophie Barat. So we were sold.

Today my mom pointed out that St. Madeleine started the Society of the Sacred Heart, and St. Margaret Mary had a vision of the Sacred Heart.

So that is how the name came to be. We both just love it!

Birth story

I know you guys have been waiting for this. Nick, you might not want to read this post! ;-)

On Monday, I woke up with contractions about 4am. They were about 8 minutes apart, and not too bad. I'd had contractions before, so I figured they would go away. I just laid in bed until 6, which is when Ken's alarm went off. By this time they were about 5 minutes apart and getting stronger, so I told him that I thought today was the day. I took a shower and got dressed, and we went downstairs and watched Along Came Polly (it was on TV), while Ken timed the contractions. At 7am, they were getting stronger, still about 5 minutes apart, so we called doctor's answering service number. They paged the doctor, and she called me back. She told me to call her back when they were about 3 minutes apart. So they kept getting closer together, and around 10am they were 3 minutes apart and getting pretty strong. We called her and she told us to come into the office for a "labor check." I didn't know what that was, but we went. We got there, another doctor checked me and said I was 3 cm dilated, and thought that this was the "early real thing." So he sent me up to triage on the labor and delivery floor. They monitored the baby and contractions for 30 minutes, then had us walk around the floor for an hour. By this time the contractions were about 2 minutes apart, and very strong. I had to stop and lean on Ken every time I had one, and use the breathing/relaxation techniques we had learned in class. After several laps, at 1:30 they checked me and said I was 5 cm dilated. So we were excited! It hadn't been that bad so far either. The nurse told me that "today was the day!" and sent me upstairs to a regular room. The labor and delivery rooms were amazing. They had a whirlpool tub, bathroom, a comfortable bed, a big flat screen tv, and some comfortable chairs for Ken. Also, they had everything for the baby right there in the room so she never had to leave. So the doctor ordered that I be on the monitor for 15 minutes out of every hour, and the rest of the time I could walk around, get in the tub, try different positions, etc. So after they monitored us for another 15 minutes, I got in the tub and turned on the jets. That helped me so much. Ken and I started praying during each contraction. He'd either say Hail Marys until it was over, or we'd pray for a specific intention on our list. That was the most amazing part of the actual labor. By this time I was in a lot of pain and it was awesome to be able to offer up the pain for each specific intention. And Ken was the best coach I could ever imagine.
At about 5pm, the doctor came and checked me again, and I was still at 5 cm. (All that pain and no progression!) So she suggested that she break my water and that would speed things up. I was warned that it would also make the pain intensify. So I let her do that, and almost immediately the contractions were coming every minute, I was getting sick, and it was the worst pain I'd ever felt. I lasted like that for 2 hours, and they checked me again and I was only 7 cm. They said they expected about 3 more hours of labor. I couldn't take it anymore, so I did end up getting an epidural. I was a little disappointed, but I was still proud of myself for lasting 15 hours with no drugs. After I got the epidural, I felt GREAT. I called my mom and had her come sit with us. She brought Ken a sandwich and some Advil because he had a headache and no one could give him anything. We just hung out in the room - Ken watched TV and my mom and I just talked - it was so great. They also had given me a little pitocin because I was progressing so slowly, and at 9:30 they checked me, said I was 10 cm and the baby's head was right there. They said we would try to push and see how I did. I asked mom to go out into the hall. The doctor and nurse and Ken were the only ones in there. I could tell when I was having a contraction, and I held my legs back and pushed - about 3 pushes with each contraction. They put a mirror down at the end of the bed, and I was really surprised because I could see her head right from the beginning! She had a lot of hair! I pushed for about 15 minutes, and then her head came halfway out! The doctor wasn't even ready, so I had to hold her in while she got her gown and gloves and everything ready. Then they realized that I was in a postpartum bed instead of a labor and delivery bed - so she sat on the edge of the bed and delivered her. She came out on the next push at 9:50pm - and she was making noises before she was even out! She came out and they put her right on my chest and she looked right into my eyes. She was so beautiful and cried right away. They took her and cleaned her and stitched me up - I had a second degree tear. After I delivered the placenta and got covered up again, mom got to come in and meet her new granddaughter - and also found out what her name was and that we had named her middle name Margaret after her! She said the next day that that was the most special thing in her life - seeing her baby girl with her baby girl.

So the entire thing lasted 18 hours. And I'd do it again in a second. Even during the worst contractions, Ken asked "How many kids do you want to have?" And I still said 10 ;-)

I think I could have done it naturally, if it hadn't been SO long... I was just too exhausted after 15 hours of labor. And I have to say, I REALLY enjoyed the last two hours and pushing her out. I will probably try to do it without drugs next time, but I'll see how it goes. I still got a beautiful, healthy baby girl, so it was all worth it.

Rare Moment

The little angel is actually sleeping in her bouncy seat! So I thought I'd take this opportunity to post a few more pictures.

Madeleine

Madeleine with her Grandma and Grandpa.

She is SO sweet and we just love her. She is keeping us really busy but I'm enjoying every minute of being her mom. I'd do it all over again in a heartbeat!

Madeleine

Hi Everyone! Thanks for all the congratulations. She is doing great and her Grandma is holding her so I can update. Hopefully this link will work:

http://www.natchezbelle.org/temp/snack/index.html

She is beautiful and we love her! She's nursing well and keeping us busy, and we get to bring her home tonight!

Introducing.....

Madeleine Margaret Pack was born last night at 9:50.
7 lbs 12 oz, 20.5 inches long.
She's healthy and beautiful!

2

Still in there. Yesterday I woke up with a sore throat and headache and just kind of laid around all day - but we still did go hear Fr. Larry last night. He was great and there was a huge turnout, so we got to see people we hadn't seen for a while. Lots of pregnant moms there! And Fr. Larry was great, as usual. He's doing the parish mission at St. Maria Goretti down the road this week, so maybe we'll be able to go once or twice.
Our friends Elizabeth and Brandon got us the cutest present last night too - they gave us a little dress for her "girly" side and a little camo outfit for her "tomboy" side! Also another friend gave us a little pair of socks that she had made.

I did have a few contractions last night when we got home - maybe it's getting close! We are headed to mass now- quite possibly the very last mass without her. It's getting hard to wait, but I am trying to enjoy these last few days - I was thinking this morning these are the last few days I'll ever feel her kicking inside me, so I'm going to enjoy it!

3

Nothing fun happening over here!

Craziness

I accidently left my phone in the car for about 1/2 hour just now. When I got back I had about 14 missed calls! Some people just had a feeling that I was in labor. No such luck. Don't worry everyone - I'll call/email/post when she gets here!!!

4 days and counting

Just got back from the doctor. I'm still 2 cm dilated, but 90% effaced and she said her head is way down. She did a really rough exam on me (on purpose) and said if I'm ready it might send me into labor. I'm not counting on it though! We made another appointment for next Friday, but hopefully I won't have to go to that one.

I sent out an email asking for intentions to pray for during labor, and I got an amazing response. I've already filled 3 pages with intentions. I'm excited to be able to offer this up for so many people - I will get to pray for lots of people and then get a beautiful baby when it's over! Sounds good to me!

Mom pointed out yesterday that this is the month that my first baby girl will be born. I am so excited - and we won't have to wait much longer! I'm going to try to keep busy today and this weekend, but also enjoy these last few days with Ken before she comes and changes our lives forever ;-)

Update (don't get too excited.)

I read this post on Danielle's blog about offering up suffering. One person commented that when they are in labor, they have a list of intentions and have their husband read one intention to them right before a contraction starts, and they offer it up for that. I thought that was a fantastic idea so I'm going to try it. They said they start out with "easy" ones and end up with harder ones as the contractions get harder.

So does anyone have anything or anyone they want me to pray for? I'll add your intentions to the list. I'm sure I'll have plenty of contractions to go around ;-)

Also, today it's supposed to be in the 50s - one of the nicest days we've had for a while. So Mom and I are going to take a walk on the Monon trail when Ava wakes up, and try to get things "moving along" so to speak. Also, I installed the carseat base in the van so we are all set - as long as we remember the actual carseat....

5 days

Still waiting, although she got us a little excited last night. I had some contractions about 10 minutes apart for an hour or so during American Idol, but then they went away!
But now at least we know she'll be a March baby. Poor kid will almost always have her birthday in Lent - we'll just have to have her parties on Sundays.
Mom and Ken are predicting she'll be born today. Ken's dad is predicting Sunday. I'm thinking she's just happy in there and might stay an extra week! Heather is predicting her birthday, which is March 16! I don't think so!

Last night I was thinking how much fun it's going to be to give her her first bath. I know you have to wait until her umbilical cord falls off, so that's probably a week or two? I'm not sure. But I just love how babies smell after you wash their hair and scrub them down. We also have tons of really cute pink hooded towels and tiny washcloths that I can't wait to use. And I also got some Baby Bee shampoo and body wash that smells SO good! And a really cute tub with a little hammock for tiny babies. I can't wait. I wonder if she'll have hair to wash?

6 days left

Nothing happening over here. Mom says that is ok because if she was born today, I'd have to return my two March birthstone necklaces that I got for Christmas and exchange them for February ones. So she can just wait until after midnight. But anytime after that is fine!

Chris and Sarah came over last night. They are letting us borrow their video camera and they got to see the baby's room. They thought it was really cute!

Ken made me spicy Indian food for dinner last night. It didn't work.

We are still waiting over here! Now I'm thinking she's not going to come early at all. I'm still feeling pretty good. I'll have to see what the doctor says on Friday.

7 days to go

And not a peep from this kid! (Well, except the constant kicking in the ribs!)
But I do feel better than I've felt in several weeks. I finished her last blanket last night and started on a little hat for my friend who is having a baby girl. I did all this during Prison Break and 24. I don't know what it is, but my attention span for TV shows is practically down to zero. (So don't get mad at me, Ken!)

We did also buy some bra pads yesterday (we got Medela from Target - my friend had recommended them), and also a different friend gave me several nursing bras - which weren't big enough around - so we went and bought some bra extenders. (Sorry if this is too much information for some people - Nick!) ;-) Ken's used to it now.

We also bought some buttons for a few sweaters I've made for her - and I love knitting but I hate sewing buttons on, so maybe Mom will do that for me? Right Mom?

Father Larry Richards is coming to our parish on Saturday night. He's an excellent speaker so I kind of hope I make it for that (of course if she comes in the next few days, maybe she can come too!) He's also doing the Parish Mission for the church down the street all next week, so hopefully we can make it at least one night. I've always wanted to go to confession to him, because he asks questions and you just have to say yes or no! I know I just went to confession, but if I get the chance to go to him I will probably go again!

Anyway, thanks for all the advice. Don't worry, it is all appreciated! I'm very happy to get advice from experienced moms, so keep it coming!

8 days

So I think the nesting instinct really kicked in for both of us yesterday! We were on a roll - got all the laundry done, vaccuumed the whole house (even the stairs!), picked up everything, hung up all her new clothes, and Ken even scrubbed the inside of the oven. And it wasn't even my idea!
I also set up the bouncy seat and little rocking chair/seat, and Ken set up the Diaper champ. Her room is all ready! Also, I washed the carseat and put the headrest in and set it to the smallest setting. Now I just need to install the base in the car, but I'm pretty much an expert at those things by now so that won't take long.
When Ava wakes up, mom and I are going to get batteries for those little seats, and some other unmentionable things (that apparently people need for breastfeeding....) That should be an adventure!
Also tonight we are borrowing a video camera from our friends (for AFTER the birth, not during!)
I also got all my thank you notes from the shower done while Ava was sleeping... and sent most of them but I need a few more stamps (thanks Mom!)
I'm feeling pretty good - maybe this is the "burst of energy" they talk about in the last week of pregnancy. Or maybe it's the girl scout cookies that finally came in today.... ;-)

The Countdown Begins

We are officially in single digits - 9 days to go until the due date! I do know that only 5% of babies are born on their actual due dates, but I am still counting (and still hoping she'll come sooner than then anyway!) March 6 seemed like SO far away not too long ago, now it is just days away and I can't believe it.

The shower was great yesterday. I got to see lots of CRHP sisters I haven't seen in awhile, and we got the very last thing we needed - the Diaper Champ! We also got lots of cute clothes, blankets, a picture frame, diapers, and some other great stuff. Also my friend who is a physical therapist is going to give me a massage after Baby Girl gets here - yeah!

We asked our friends Jeff and Donna to be our baby's Godparents today after mass. They were excited and honored - and I know they will be great!

And here's a very important tip I learned this weekend. If you're 9 months pregnant and want to go to confession, and you get there and two very holy nuns are in front of you in line and there's nowhere to sit, just leave and come back later ;-)

Fish Fry

First fish fry of the season! Love it! Mom and Dad and a bunch of friends are going too.
The next one is March 9 and I hope Baby Girl is here for that one ;-)

My best friend Lori is coming tomorrow for my last shower! I'm so excited to see her. She lives in southern Indiana and it's been quite a while since we've seen each other. My Christ Renews His Parish team is having a shower for me tomorrow, and I haven't seen most of them for a long time either. We're also going to confession and adoration tomorrow - and maybe mass - or maybe we'll wait until Sunday for that. Then Ken and I are spending the day together on Sunday. This might be our last weekend with just the two of us!

Ok we are off to The Fry!

Love and Marriage

Marriage Meme: Because I like to remember this.

1. Where/how did you meet? In mom's garage when we were going to Evansville - see two posts ago for the whole story.

2. How long have you known each other? Since December 31, 1999

3. How long after you met did you start dating? 3 months or so - then he became Catholic 2 months later.

4. How long did you date before you were engaged? about a year and a half

5. How long was your engagement? November to June

6. How long have you been married? Will be 5 years in June

7. What is your anniversary? June 29, 2002

8. How many people came to your wedding reception? Maybe 250?

9. What kind of cake did you serve? Carrot with Cream Cheese frosting - my favorite ;-)

10. Where was your wedding? Our Lady of Mt. Carmel

11. What did you serve for your meal? I don't remember! All I ate was fruit.

12. How many people were their in your bridal party? We each had 6 bridesmaids/groomsman, plus 2 flower girls, and a junior groomsman.

13. Are you still friends with them all? Yes, mostly - we don't see each other as often as we would like.

14. Did you or your spouse cry during the ceremony? Yep, I won't say who ;-)

15. Most special moment of your wedding day? The best part was that Ken and I were the Eucharistic ministers - we got to share the blood of Christ with all our friends and family! (Ok, I cried the whole time I was giving out communion!)

16. Any funny moments? Now that we look back on them, they are funny - see next question!

17. Any big disasters? I was sick that day, but was pretty much fine once the ceremony started. AND, none of the tuxes fit. NONE. We were exchanging like mad a few days before the wedding.

18. Where did you go on your honeymoon? Charleston, SC. It was wonderful.

19. How long were you gone? A week.

20. If you were to do your wedding over, what would you change? Nothing. It was perfect.

21. What side of the bed do you sleep on? When looking at the bed from the foot of it, on the right.

22. What size is your bed? Queen.

23. Greatest strength as a couple? Faith, hope and love.

24. Greatest challenge as a couple? Balancing work and family and other commitments.

25. Who literally pays the bills? Ken, but I put the checks in the bank ;-)

26. What is your song? Hm... don't think we really have one.

27. What did you dance your first dance to? You are the Love of my Life, by Michael W. Smith and Jim Brickman - we learned the fox trot and wowed everyone! And then my dad and I danced to Zoot Suit Riot - a swing dance, since that is our tradition at weddings! Everyone loved it.

28. Describe your wedding dress? Beautiful - white satin, thin straps, beaded around the top and bottom, veil and satin slippers.

29. What kind of flowers did you have at your wedding? Mom made them! I had white and pink gardenias and white and pink calla lillies, and the bridesmaids all carried different colored pastel roses, which looked great with their black dresses.

30. Are your wedding bands engraved? What do they say? No.

I tag everyone who reads this blog!

38 1/2 weeks

I went to the doctor again today - new guy that I hadn't met before, but he was very nice. I'm still about the same - 2 cm, maybe a little more effaced, and her head is way down. I hope she comes soon, because I'm getting a little too cranky, emotional, and uncomfortable. Oh well! Just some more things to offer up ;-) (I think I'm giving Ken some things to offer up too!)

I'm going to go lie down on the couch until Ava wakes up!

Another DJ Story from years past

This is one of my favorites. It was the year 2000, and the theme of the weekend was "Go Fish." (Evangelization theme.) I had brought a group of high school kids from St. Francis in Muncie where I was going to school at Ball State.
First of all - a little background. I had been dating a guy for about 8 months or so, and he thought I was "the one." By New Years Eve (1999) I knew that I wasn't going to marry this guy, but his birthday was that day and we had already planned to go down to my friend's house in Evansville, go to a nice dinner on the river and go to mass at Midnight. So I decided that I didn't want to go with this guy by myself, so I begged my friend Mary to come with me. She said she would, but she had already promised her friend Ken that she would do something with him. (Yes, this is "my" Ken and yes, this does have something to do with Destination Jesus.)

Anyway, the 4 of us went down there together, I enjoyed meeting Ken and hanging out with Mary. Ken and I exchanged phone numbers because he was deciding to become Christian and I told him he could email me or call me with any questions. We had had a great time talking about the Catholic Church that weekend. So I ended up meeting with him at OLMC for mass the next day, then I went back to school. We kept in touch over email and phone conversations, and he decided to become Catholic. Then he asked me to be his sponsor - and my mom said that was the best "pick-up line" she'd ever heard! So we got to be good friends over this time and he was going through RCIA.

So the other guy and I were still dating. I was becoming more and more convicted every day that he wasn't the one for me, but was having a hard time breaking up with him. So at DJ in the year 2000, Ken and this guy were both there helping out. (Mom met Ken at this weekend, and embarassed him in front of the other guy when she said "Oh, so THIS is the guy I've been hearing so much about!")

Anyway, I was really praying on Saturday night, "God, what do you want me to do? Do you want me to break up with him?" Then I just felt good about it - a sense of peace - that I was supposed to break up with him and everything would be ok. So I planned on doing it the next day after DJ was over. When the kids were leaving, we had "Messages in a bottle," which were 700 different bible verses that mom and I had found and typed over Christmas break. The kids were supposed to pick one and it would mean something to them. After all the kids were gone, I picked up an extra one. It was from Sirach, and although I don't remember the exact verse, it was something like "Behold, you are pleased with my sincerity of heart, and in my inmost being you teach me wisdom."
So I was pretty convinced that God was telling me to break up with this guy.
Then, mom and I were walking down the hall, and I started having doubts. I asked her, "Mom, what if all these doubts about our relationship are not coming from God? What if they are coming from myself or even the devil?" Just then, I bent over to pick up a piece of trash off the floor. It was a bible verse that someone had dropped, and it was from Matthew. It said "Take courage, it is I. Do not be afraid."
I was amazed.

I did break up with the guy that day. It was hard, but I am so glad I did. Because that night, I was talking to Ken on the phone about it, and he said, "So, are you going to go out with me now?" Honestly I hadn't even considered it, but we started dating, he became Catholic a few months later, we got engaged about a year and a half later (after I had finished school), then we got married in June of 2002, and the rest is history - he's the best husband I could ever ask for! God is good!!

DJ

Destination Jesus (DJ) #12 was great this weekend. Despite the blizzard last week and more snow on Friday and Saturday, all 744 teenagers showed up (plus tons of adults!) All the seminarians from the Diocese of Lafayette were there, including the deacons who will become priests in June (except the one who is studying in Rome!) Deacon Dan, who is baptizing Baby Pack on Easter, did the vocations talk on Sunday morning and did a fantastic job.
I got to help mom in the sacristy, but didn't wear myself out too much. I also got to see lots of people I haven't seen for a while.

The kids were exceptionally well behaved and reverent this year, especially during the Eucharistic procession. The Eucharist is exposed in the monstrance in the middle of the gym all weekend, and on Saturday night, they tell the story of the woman in the bible who touched Jesus' robes and was healed. Then, Fr. Richard carries the monstrance around to every single person in the room and we all get to touch the robes. We were in the very last row, and Baby was relatively quiet during the whole procession (I think the music was putting her to sleep!) But when Jesus got close, she started jumping around like crazy - just like John the baptist - she was happy to be close to Jesus!

The best part of the weekend for me was mass on Sunday with the bishop. ALL the seminarians and Knights of Our Lady (very reverent and trained altar boys), were up there, the music was so beautiful, and the bishop gave a great homily. They played my very favorite song, Blessed be Your Name.

Here are the lyrics:

Blessed Be Your Name

Blessed be Your name in the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow Blessed be Your name
And blessed be Your name when I’m found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness Blessed be your name

Every blessing You pour out I’ll turn back to praise
And when the darkness closes in Lord Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name when the sun’s shining down on me
When the world’s “all as it should be” Blessed be Your name
And blessed be Your name on the road marked with suffering
Though there’s pain in the offering Blessed be Your name

You give and take away You give and take away
My heart will choose to say Lord, blessed be Your name


Last year at the DJ mass on Sunday, I had been diagnosed with endometriosis, had my first surgery, and had just had my second shot of Lupron a few days before. We had been trying to get pregnant for over a year, and still didn't know if it would happen. When they sang this song during that mass, I really prayed the lyrics. I decided that I would praise God whatever happened in my life, even "on the road marked with suffering." After that I felt a great sense of peace.

Then, in June, on our 4th anniversary, I took my very first positive pregnancy test. I knew I wanted to tell Ken that night and I was so thankful that I got to give him this gift on our anniversary! I had Ava and I was driving to Babies R Us to get him the bib that said "Daddy is my Hero." It was still just so surreal, and I was the only one who knew. When I turned on the radio, Blessed be Your Name came on! It was amazing.

So, they played that song on Sunday, exactly a year later, and I just cried all the way through it. I'm so thankful to God for this blessing.

Baby update

I went to the doctor again today and had my first "exam." That was not fun at all. But she said I am more than 75% effaced and 2 cm dilated, and the baby's head is way down! Yeah! She said it's a good chance the baby could come sooner than the due date, which would be fine with me! She said I better pack my bag. Any suggestions on what to pack? I have the baby's bag ready, but not mine. I suppose I should get on that....
Also she's considered full term (38 weeks) so it's safe for her to come anytime. Of course, my two favorite doctors in the practice are going skiing all week, so maybe if she could at least wait until next Saturday.... but I guess it doesn't really matter who delivers her. Ken will be doing all the coaching anyway.
Mom said she's going to run me around all weekend at Destination Jesus so she'll come on Monday. I told her I can't really run anymore - it's more of a waddle.
Hm... I guess I better get some diapers and wipes! But also the doctor said there's a chance I could still carry her to the due date, so I better not get too excited.
Oh and MaryEllen gave us a camera today - I had a bad dream that I went into labor and we didn't have a camera so we couldn't take any pictures! Thank God for good friends ;-)

Flowers and Candy are nice

But Ken got me the BEST Valentine's present ever!

Here it is

I love it and I can't wait to try it out! (Well, I tried it with the cat, but she was not too thrilled! ;-)

And we can finally get out of the driveway! We hired a great guy with a truck and a plow, since the 4 foot drift against our garage was not going anywhere. Best $25 I ever spent. Also they finally plowed our street after 3 days. So this baby can come anytime now. The last few days it would have been a big problem getting to the hospital!

We are gearing up for Destination Jesus, which starts tomorrow. I still have to finish a few costumes, and we are setting up tonight. Ken will be playing guitar all weekend with the band and I'm helping mom out in the sacristy. I am in charge of getting kids to do all the mass parts, then telling them where and when to go. We're supposed to get more snow and sub zero temperatures. Should be an interesting weekend!

Poor Ken

He was coming home from work and he got stuck at the end of our street! It's blowing and drifting, of course our street hasn't been plowed (and there's probably 12 inches of snow on it!) I tried to go help him by pushing his car with the van, but I can't get out of the garage!
So he had to walk all the way home - about a half mile - through a foot of snow and more of it blowing right in his face. Then he left his blinkers on, thinking we could get a tow truck to come tow him home, but no one will do it because the street is not plowed and they don't want to take the chance of one of their drivers getting stuck. So now he is going to walk back down there to turn off the blinkers and just leave it until someone can get to it. Poor guy!
It's still coming down hard too. I'm thinking the schools will be closed again tomorrow, and I'm not sure if we will even be able to get out of the driveway!

True Love

Ken and I will have been married for 5 years in June. 5 years! It seemed like it went so fast. I was 22 when we got married, and he was 30. In that time, we lived in a small apartment for 2 years, Ken went through 3 years of law school, graduated, and passed the bar, we've both had several different jobs, we bought a house, and in a few weeks we'll have our daughter.
We've had a great time together - hundreds of dates at Barnes and Nobles, dinners, movies, hung out with friends, we've been in the Frassati Society and been in charge of "Late Nite with Fr. Richard" together, but in the past year, I've fallen more and more in love with him every day.
We went through two years of trying to conceive and being disappointed, but he was always optimistic and open to life, no matter how it would come to us. He took care of me after my two surgeries for endometriosis and my 3 months of drug induced menopause. He rejoiced with me when we became pregnant, and I got to tell him on our 4th anniversary. He came to all my ultrasounds and most of my doctors appointments. He ran to the store when I was having cravings, and ate a LOT of Mexican food in my first trimester with me when that was the only thing that sounded good. He's scooped the kitty litter the whole time without complaining. He took care of me through morning sickness. He would feel my belly when I started feeling the baby kick. He prays for her. He spent 3 days of one of his only vacations painting the nursery and setting up the furniture. He attended every single Bradley class with me, and I know he'll be a great coach in a few weeks! He's taken care of me a lot in the past few weeks when I've been too tired and sore to cook and clean. He wakes up with me when I can't sleep and we practice our relaxation.
In a few weeks we'll welcome our daughter into our family. I know he'll be the best daddy that a girl could ask for. I can't wait to see him hold her. I'm sure my love for him will grow more and more every day.

Happy Valentines Day Ken! I love you!

Snow!

They're saying we could get 8 - 16 inches of snow tonight, and no one should plan on going to work or school tomorrow! *fingers crossed!*

My busy day

Yesterday was a CRAZY day. I had to get up at 6:15 to take Ken to the airport (very hard for an extra large pregnant woman who doesn't get enough sleep as it is!). Then I had a Destination Jesus meeting at LePeeps (delicious), then I went straight over to the Frassati meeting and heard Dr. Ray. Like Anne said, I was pretty disappointed that he did not speak about parenting, but instead his conversion story. Judging from all the moms, dads, and babies hanging out in the back of the room, (not to mention the pregnant women) many people were probably expecting a parenting talk. However, he was still great and I'm still glad I went. Then I had two hours to make the Tshirt costumes for the skit for Destination Jesus, then I had my last pre-baby haircut, then I went out to dinner with a friend, and came home and crashed on the couch with the cat!
Now it's Sunday morning and I'm going to pick up Ken soon. I'm really glad he got to take the earlier, direct flight and he'll be home at 9:30am instead of later this afternoon, and I'm glad we get to go to Mass together.
Sorry this is kind of random, I'm VERY low on sleep these days. Even Tylenol PM is not helping much. Oh well - maybe this is preparing me for getting up every 2 hours when the baby gets here. I'm certainly already getting used to it!

All good news

I went to the doctor today. I'm immune to Fifth Disease, the baby is measuring perfect, and the doctor said our birth plan was great. Also she said I lost a few pounds - which is normal.
She asked if the baby was moving around, and I told her I thought she was moving a little less than usual this week. So I had to do a non-stress test, which involved hooking me up to a monitor for half an hour, to watch the baby's heartrate and movements. She is doing great, and the doctor even said she's a happy baby in there. They were looking for her heartrate to go up when she moved, which is what it did. They said it was normal for the baby not to move as much in the last month because they just don't have as much room.
Also, they could feel the baby's position now, and her head is down and her little butt is pushed right up against my ribs. ;-)
So everything looks good! Thanks for all the prayers!

Ken and I are going on a date tonight - yeah! Kincaids, and then maybe a movie. My boss gave us a gift card to Kincaids for Christmas - we are very lucky! Besides our usual cheap date of Barnes and Nobles, this could be our last nice dinner date by ourselves for a while!

Why I like the Colts

After the victory, Coach Dungy led the whole team in an Our Father. Reporters say there was not a dry eye in the room.

Best Buy

During my baby shower on Saturday, Dad, my brother and my husband went to Best Buy to get a new TV (unbeknownst to my poor mom!) Dad bought a nice big flat screen for the SuperBowl party. When he got home, he realized that they had given him the wrong TV - they had given him one that was about $2000 more than the one he bought! So on Monday, he went to tell them what happened. My mom said that everyone at Best Buy was flabbergasted that he would come back and tell them. All the managers came over to shake my dad's hand. They asked him what he wanted to do, and Dad told them that he really liked the TV, and asked if they would give him a deal on it. The manager said they would give him a great deal, and took a big percentage off the price. When he went to pay, the cashier couldn't believe that he had come back either and was paying the extra money. She said she wished everyone was as honest as him. It's too bad that most people wouldn't do what he did. Of course I would expect nothing less from Dad - but I'm very proud of him!

Oh boy...

Is it February 6 already?! That means less than one month till this kid is due!

Over the weekend

Ok, the doctor called me today and said they wouldn't have the test results in for a week. So I guess if they are not worried, I am not worried.

On a better note, we had an amazing baby shower again! We are so blessed to have all these great friends. My friend Ashley from Iowa sent me a beautiful quilt that she made - I love it! And Ken got his very own "manly" diaper bag - and he was very happy about that! Also lots of clothes and books, the rest of our bedding for her crib, a beautiful scrapbook that just needs pictures, and lots of other stuff. Ken and I also picked up our new rocking chair and the boys (Ken, my brother and my dad) put it up in her room during the shower. Then mom and I came over afterwards and put everything away, and set up the pack n play downstairs so we'll have a changing area down here too. We are getting ready for her! Also I think pretty much everyone's given up asking about the name. I don't think anyone even mentioned it. ;-) We've held out this long, we might as well wait a few more weeks!

So, while the shower was going on, the boys went to Best Buy and bought a huge flat screen LCD TV. Then we got to watch the Blue Reign. Pretty much a great weekend!

And after mass on Sunday morning, we were talking about how we only have a few more weeks of going to mass by ourselves. (I guess that means the days of getting up at 7:30 and going to 8:00am mass are over!) Also, we said that when I told Ken we were pregnant on our anniversary in June, March 6 seemed so far away. Now it is right around the corner. Our lives will change forever! She's already changing our lives. This weekend, Ken is going to play a Sarah Bauer gig in Atlanta. Normally I would be going and playing as well, but my doctor won't let me anywhere near a plane. So I am staying home by myself. But I get to go to a Frassati Society meeting with Dr. Ray Guarendi as the keynote speaker on Saturday. He is a Catholic parenting expert and I can't wait to hear him. Perfect timing to get his advice.

Then the weekend after that is Destination Jesus. Ken's playing in the band and I'm helping with all the sacristy stuff and the dramatic skit. Then I have another baby shower the next weekend, and then we'll be 1 week from her due date! I can't believe it!

A little scary

A first grader came down with Fifth Disease at OLMC and the nurse sent home a note that all pregnant women need to call their doctor. (I take care of a first grader.) So I called them today and I had to go get my blood drawn, to test if I have been exposed, and/or if I have immunity. They said about 50% of people have immunity already. My friend who is an OB/GYN nurse said that if I do have the disease, at this point they would probably deliver the baby. If I wasn't so far along, sometimes they have to do blood transfusions - I guess it's a pretty big deal. So hopefully I wasn't exposed, or I already have immunity! We should find out the results on Monday. But I'm a little nervous so please pray for us!

At least I have a baby shower and the Superbowl to keep my mind off these things this weekend!

Baby Update

I went to the doctor yesterday. 2 weeks ago I was measuring a little small, and they said they'd check her growth and if she was still small, they would do another ultrasound. (I've had 4 so far - 5 weeks, 8 weeks, 18 weeks and 24 weeks!) Well, she is perfect this time - 36 cm, right on target for 36 weeks. Her heartrate is good also. The doctor said I should start mentally preparing myself for labor. I told him we had 10 weeks of Bradley Classes, and he said that's as prepared as anyone can get! Now I have to go to the doctor once/week until she is born! It's getting close and I can't wait! I think Ken can wait though - every time I casually mention that she might come early, he says, "No! She has to simmer!" But I can't wait to meet her.

Ok, now I have to go figure out how to make an extra large Colts Tshirt look decent on me before "Blue Friday."

Some people have all the good ideas

Why didn't I think of this?

Just kidding, everyone!

A few pictures

No, we still don't have a camera. But here are some pictures from Mom's camera for your viewing pleasure ;-)

Recent Chubby Picture - how much bigger am I going to get?!

Snack's first Colts Game - In October. Ken thinks she is lucky for them this year - hopefully she'll be very lucky for them this Sunday!!

Baby Shower

I had my first baby shower yesterday - mostly family and some friends of my mom's who I call my "spiritual moms." My Godmother and Godfather even came from Michigan - although my Godfather shopped for tools while the shower was going on! It was so fun and we are so blessed! Now I can't wait to make her bed, hang up all her new little clothes, and put everything in her room. Mom got us a beautiful rocking chair - she said that she had so many wonderful memories of rocking us, she wanted Ken and I to have those too! I can't wait to sit in her room and nurse her and rock her and just hold her. And I can't believe we only have about 5 weeks left until we get to do those things!

We had to wait so long to get pregnant - first 2 years of NFP while Ken was in law school, then two full years of trying. It got so frustrating at times. Now it seems like God had the perfect plan for us all along - imagine that! I wouldn't trade this little girl for anything, and I'm happy that I had the opportunity to offer up all of that suffering for her and all my future children.

Baptism

This past Saturday, we attended the baptism class at OLMC. We had to fill out a form that asked questions such as "What does baptism mean to you?" and "Why do you want to baptize your child?" and "List specific ways you will raise your child in the Catholic faith." They certainly didn't give us enough room!

I can't wait for her baptism. It is on Easter Sunday, and one of my good friends, Deacon Dan, will baptize her. He will become a priest for the diocese of Lafayette in June. She will wear a beautiful white gown, all our friends and family will be there, and she will become an adopted daughter of God. It makes me so excited just thinking about it. God has given us this precious gift, and we are so blessed. I can't wait for her to receive her first sacrament, and promise God that we will raise her to love and serve Him. It will be a day of Thanksgiving.

Interesting day

Yesterday, Ken and I went up to Logansport for the Sarah Bauer gig (he was playing, I was not - can't hold the guitar anymore!) We pulled up to the door behind this truck to unload Ken's stuff. Immediately after we parked, the truck backed right into our van! The guy who got out spoke only Spanish, said he didn't have insurance, and tried to just give us $100 to cover it. We knew the damage was more than that, so we called Fr. Mike out to help us. He told Fr. Mike that he did have insurance, but didn't want to make a claim. (He didn't know I speak Spanish!) Well, he ended up calling the police to make a report, and we exchanged information. Other than standing outside in the snow for an hour, it wasn't so bad and I'm not worried about it. After the concert, we drove home for a minute before going to mom's house for the game. When we turned onto our street, there were car tire tracks swerving all over the street and through people's yards. When we got to our yard, the person had swerved way into our front yard, hit our mailbox, knocked it forward (and all the mail into the snow), and drove away.

Of course, none of this mattered later that night.....

THE COLTS ARE GOING TO THE SUPER BOWL!!!!!

I just have one thing to say....

GO COLTS!!!!!!!!

Last Bradley Class

We had our last class on Tuesday night. It was kind of sad (for me, not for Ken!) Hopefully we will be prepared. We watched a video on breastfeeding, and they made it look pretty complicated. Surely it can't be that hard. We are really going to have to practice our relaxation. I can't believe it's January 18 already!
I really hope that I can do a natural birth. We went to the doctor today and Baby is measuring just a little small. They said they would wait until my next appointment in two weeks, and if she isn't growing, they will do another ultrasound to make sure everything is ok. But her heartbeat was great, they said my weight gain and blood pressure were great too. And she is moving around all the time so the doctor said there is nothing to worry about. Anyone else experienced this?

Mom and I got the cradle set up yesterday. It's been used by all my cousins, me and my brother, and all everyone's kids. Dad fixed it up and it looks beautiful!

Great Concert

If anyone is in the Logansport area this weekend, there will be a great concert at All Saints Parish at 2:00 on Sunday. Sarah Bauer, an amazing Catholic singer and recording artist, (not to mention her incredible band) will be playing there. Come hear some great Catholic music!

Going public

I've been debating since I started this blog if I should share it with all my friends and family. At first it was just a place to record thoughts about this pregnancy, but now I have several people who I don't know reading it! (And I've really enjoyed meeting some online friends!) Maybe I should share it with people, but then I think - who really wants to read about this? I'll have to decide. Any suggestions/thoughts?

Strong baby

I think she's going to play soccer, kickboxing, or something! Especially when people across the room can see her move through 2 layers of clothing, or when the cat is laying on me and the baby kicks her off!! Of course, let's hope she gets her dad's coordination and athleticism and not her mom's.....

And by the way, Happy Birthday to Mom yesterday!! She will be the greatest Grandma in the world.

Great Weekend

The Colts beat the Chiefs, and are on to the next round of the playoffs! Mom and Dad had us and Ken's parents over for a Colts party, which was great. Also we took down our Christmas decorations, put a bunch of stuff away, cleaned up around here, hung out at our weekly date spots - Barnes and Nobles and Borders, and celebrated the Epiphany at 8:00 am mass this morning. Ken always tries to talk me into going to a later mass, but I just love that one!

Also, we went to Joe's Butcher Shop today, and we were talking about his kids because their family was sitting in front of us at mass. Ken told Joe that we were expecting our first child, and he didn't believe I was 33 weeks and said I looked great - a man after my own heart! Kind of like the Pizza Man, but in a different way!

Unfortunately, we did not get a digital camera this weekend like we were planning. They were not on sale, but we will keep looking and I'll get some pictures up soon.

Hope everyone else had a great weekend too!

More about the baby's room

It's so peaceful in there. That is the feeling I get when I go in. It's not even close to being done yet, but it's already better than I ever imagined. It's even very well organized so far with the stuff we already have. Hopefully I can keep it that way when she is born!

So now that we are working on the room, it seems a lot more real to me that we are actually going to have a baby. I know that probably sounds weird - I mean, someone's kicking me all the time, my belly is getting huge, and I'm constantly going to the doctor. Also I can hardly get my shoes on or roll out of bed anymore, but for some reason, the room makes it seem really real.

I'm getting even more excited -and can't wait to see how she looks in her new room!

My mom was taking down her Christmas decorations today, and she commented that it never seems too long between Christmases. But next Christmas, little Snack will be about 9 months old, getting into everything, playing with the wrapping paper, and listening to Christmas stories. (Mom said she bought out the Christmas books for her at the Barnes and Nobles 50% off sale!) It's pretty amazing how much our lives will change between now and then.

Happy New Year!

Sorry I've been slacking with my posts! We had a busy couple of weeks. We had a great Christmas and New Year, and Ken and I had our last vacation before little Snack arrives (or our last vacation for about 20 years as my friend Jenny said!) We got the baby's room painted and the crib and changing table/dresser set up in there, as well as all of her clothes and toys put away. It looks so beautiful - better than I ever imagined. I will post some pictures when we get a camera (this weekend, I hope!)

I had a doctor's appointment today and everything looks great. Only 8 weeks to go!!

NYC Pictures

We had a great time in New York City last weekend - all that walking was a little rough for me, but we had lots of fun anyway. My very favorite thing we did was shop in the baby department at Bloomingdales. I also enjoyed having the famous frozen hot chocolate at Serendipity3, going to mass at St. Patrick's Cathedral, seeing Rockefeller Center, and eating at the Caravan of Dreams.
Ken also got us a great hotel after weeks of searching. We had a rough time getting home the next day (flying standby), but it was probably better that we weren't watching the Colts lose.

"Lucky" day

Yesterday mom and I went to the mall with Ava. On the way back, mom wanted to stop at Family Christian Store. Ava was asleep in the car, so I stayed in the car and listened to the radio and read for about an hour while mom was shopping. Then mom came out and found a dime. She thought it was her lucky day. Well, when she got into the car, it wouldn't start! Apparently, I had drained the battery. We called dad, who was already out, to get us jumper cables and come jump the van. While we were waiting for him, we decided to take Ava over to Starbucks across the parking lot. When we were walking over there, we found $40 on the sidewalk! Dad came and jumped us, and the van is doing fine. Mom and I are each $20 richer - good thing the car died!!

By the way, I'll post some pictures of New York soon!

New York City

Here we come! This will be our last trip for a while. Hopefully Sarah or Chris will bring a camera and I can post some pictures when we get back!

Natural Childbirth

I'm a little hesitant to write about this, because I hate to say anything and then end up getting an epidural. I've never experienced childbirth, so I don't really know what it's like. That said, we are taking a Bradley Method class and I'm definitely going to try for a natural birth. We have taken 5 out of 10 classes so far. I really like it so far, because it teaches your husband to be your coach. Actually one of Dr. Bradley's books is called Husband Coached Childbirth. They teach all about the different stages of labor, many different ways to control/deal with pain, different positions, exercises, etc. It's very interesting. The exercises have actually helped with my back pain already.

I have several reasons I want to try natural childbirth. First, I am really into eating healthy, mostly organic food. We shop almost exclusively at Wild Oats. I'm not fanatic about it, but I believe that is the most healthy way to go. After I was diagnosed with endometriosis, I did a lot of research about different foods that are good or bad for us, and I changed a lot of my eating habits (they were terrible when I was in college.) I stopped eating processed food, partially hydrogenated oils, basically non-natural things, and focused on whole grains, fruits and veggies, lean meats, etc. I felt better and lost weight without trying. I also learned that some drugs aren't good for endometriosis (and health in general) either. So I stopped taking some - specifically Aleve, which is what I have always used for pain. While I was doing all this research, I found the Bradley method, which I believe is the most natural childbirth method. We've learned in class that all the drugs have an effect on the babies, and that the babies that are born naturally are much more alert, more successful at breastfeeding, and aren't at risk for a number of problems that can happen with the drugs. Also there is a shorter recovery time for the mother, with no side effects from the drugs.
I also think that since women have been doing this for 1000s of years, why couldn't I? I think I'm going to try to focus on Jesus on the cross, Mother Teresa, and Mary (who had a LONG donkey ride in her 9th month and then gave birth in a stable). We as Catholics are blessed to know that there is a reason for suffering. My mom also gave me a small statue many years ago that is Mary lifting the baby Jesus into the air. It is called "Cause of our Joy." I think I'm going to bring that with me to the hospital. I know that the pain I will go through will have a reason and I will get a beautiful baby out of it!
My mom had natural childbirth with both of us - and she says it wasn't that bad either.
All of my friends have had epidurals though, and so I don't have anyone else who can tell me how it really is.

On a more personal note, we struggled with infertility for 2 years, I had 2 surgeries for endometriosis and 3 months of menopause inducing drugs in between them to stop it from growing. I offered all of this pain up for our future children. I am so blessed to have gotten pregnant right after the second surgery. I am so joyful about this baby, even happy about the morning sickness, aches and pains, and everything else. I'm offering all of the little sufferings up for Baby Girl. I think that going through childbirth and offering up the pain for her will be a great gift, and I'm going to specifically offer it up for her to be called to holiness, and that we can raise her in a way that she will be able to respond to that call.

28 weeks

I just came back from my last monthly doctor appointment - from now on I have to go every 2 weeks. I had the glucose tolerance test and the nurse had an awful time drawing blood - I'm glad my mom was with me! I also have a terrible cold, and the doctor gave me a list of medicines that I can take - thank God! I just hope I'm better for New York this weekend.....

The baby looks great - good strong heartbeat, and measuring perfectly. I always love to hear her heartbeat. I can't wait to meet her.

Does anyone have any feelings/ experience with natural childbirth? We are taking a Bradley Class. Looks interesting. I hope I can do it.

Caffeine Kick

Ken and I (and Ava and Kallyn), met for lunch at Starbucks today. We both ordered mochas (again with the chocolate addiction.) Mine was supposed to be decaf but I think they mixed them up. This kid is really kicking me!!

Coincidence?

I am officially back to my prepregnancy weight. Coincidentally, I hit the big number the day after Thanksgiving.... hmmm...

I guess it's not SO bad - I did lose 13 lbs the first trimester, and now I'm back at almost 28 weeks (and I have a much bigger belly than I did before!) So can I start now and count everything I gain from now until this kid is born, or do I have to start from the 13 I lost?

I really think I need to cut down on the chocolate, or things could get out of hand.....

It's Thanksgiving weekend

And here are a few things I'm thankful for...

1. Baby Pack, of course. We are so grateful for her, and can't wait for her to get here. Everybody pray for her!

2. My fantastic husband. I can't wait to see him in his new role as "Daddy." I'm sure she'll have him wrapped around her finger in no time!

3. My dad's health. He had triple bypass surgery just 3 weeks ago. He is well on the road to recovery. We are so blessed they caught it in time and could fix it.

4. My family. They are all amazing, generous, giving people, and lots of fun to be around! My Grandma, Aunt Lisa and Aunt Christy drove 8 hours each way just to sit with us in the waiting room while dad was having his surgery. They made the day go so much faster and it was so great to see them. So many people in our family are great examples of what I want to be someday (especially mom!)

5. Our house. It may have been built in 1968, and have all the original appliances and cabinets, but it has plenty of room for our family, and is within walking distance to church, mom and dad's house, and my job.

6. My job. I get to take care of two beautiful, fun girls every day, and work for a great family. Also, I can bring my baby with me.

7. All our friends, especially our church community. I'll have to write more about them later.

8. Our Church, Our Lady of Mt. Carmel. www.olmc1.org I can't imagine a better parish.

9. Being Catholic, especially because of the Sacraments.

10. Relaxing and enjoying the 4 day weekend!

Baby Names

Guess what we've been doing?

Any suggestions?

I just hope she has hair....

When we go to New York City in a couple of weeks, Ken wants to get her this. I just hope she has enough hair to put a nice pink bow in....

Baby Girl Pack

Looks like she's making the Sign of the Cross. Good Catholic Baby. ;-)